Today is where my book begins...

Friend's Friday!

2012-02-24T11:55:00.001-08:00

"Once I was a wooden boy!"

J. Marb. Love

2012-02-23T22:31:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/user/JennaMarbles

You guys really need to follow this girl. She is so freakin hilarious! I seriously quote her all day long. Having a bad day? Watch some Jenna Marbles. It's sure to turn that frown upside down! :P She's my best friend...she just doesn't know it yet.

First time watching? I recommend "how to avoid talking to people you don't want to talk too."

ENJOY!

Back to school!

2012-02-22T20:59:00.000-08:00

WHAT. A. DAY. Holy cow am I tired. School is officially back in session. I have only been there one day and I already have a head ache.

This morning I got up extra early and prepared my self to go through the battle field of parking today with my oh so lovely sister. We left an hour and a half early so we wouldn't be late to our dance class. Apparently, that wasn't enough. Those of you who attend PCC know or understand what am I talking about. I have never seen it as bad as it was today. No parking in the garage, no parking on the streets, or the lots. We found our selves wondering, what would Jenna Marbles do? Park the car in the middle of the road and not give a FUCK! I need to get to class. To make matters worse, people drive incredibly stupid. I mean did you drop your brain on the way out the door?? Or are you really just that retarded? Besides that, I did eventually make it to my class...two hours later and a half an hour late! Luckily, it's not the first time I had taken the class and I have a really good relationship with the instructor and she already knew I was coming.

Dance was so amazing. I cannot believe how much I missed it and how quickly everything came back too me. It relaxes me so much just as much as it pushes me to do better. When I am dancing, it is the most incredible feeling in the world. I am completely comfortable in my own skin and I feel like I am in my own little world. It's when I am truly happy. I think that dance will always be apart of my life in some way. This semester, I will hopefully be taking two dance classes. In a row! 3 hours of dancing? Heck yes! I won't know If I will for sure be enrolled in the second dance class or not till Monday but, I am keeping positive thoughts! And crossing my fingers!

After that, I had to come home and quickly shower and eat before my orientation started for my online class. This is where my day become a head ache. I was already tired and very irritable from the rest of the day. When I got there the teacher wasn't even there! She couldn't be there because of personal issues so instead, there was an old man. Who was very nice but, not helpful at all. -__- Gave me no information at all except for about himself and how you really should focus and graduate school. I'm sorry but, that does not help me with my online health class. I swear it was like twiddle dumb and twiddle dee up there trying to explain to the students what was going on. Eventually, after several people had left, I left too. There was no reason for me to be there any longer and all it was doing was giving me a migraine. I came home and ended up figuring it out on my own. AND I have to buy a book, like I haven't spent enough money already. Money that I don't have. *sigh*

So, here I am now, complaining to you all about my very tiring day. Lol. Hopefully everything works out and I won't have to stress anymore. NOW, I am going to finish watching One Tree Hill and enjoy eating my peanut butter filled M&Ms as I wind down from my hectic day. Until next time my friends! Oh and p.s! Its Jenna Marbles Wednesday! J. Marb.

xoxo,
Alex<3

"Ours"

2012-02-21T16:00:00.000-08:00

"Elevator buttons and morning air

Strangers' silence makes me want to take the stairs

If you were here we'd laugh about their vacant stares

But right now my time is theirs

Seems like there's always someone who disapproves

They'll judge it like they know about me and you

And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do

The jury's out, my choice is you

So don't you worry your pretty little mind

People throw rocks at things that shine

And life makes love look hard

The stakes are high, the water's rough

But this love is ours

You never know what people have up their sleeves

Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at me

Lurking in the shadows with their lip gloss smiles

But I don't care 'cause right now you're mine

And you'll say

Don't you worry your pretty little mind

People throw rocks at things that shine

And life makes love look hard

The stakes are high, the water's rough

But this love is ours

And it's not theirs to speculate

If it's wrong and

Your hands are tough

But they are where mine belong and

I'll fight their doubt and give you faith

With this song for you

'Cause I love the gap between your teeth

And I love the riddles that you speak

And any snide remarks from my father about your tattoos will be ignored

'Cause my heart is yours

So don't you worry your pretty little mind

People throw rocks at things that shine

And life makes love look hard

Don't you worry your pretty little mind

People throw rocks at things that shine

But they can't take what's ours

They can't take what's ours

The stakes are high, the water's rough

But this love is ours"

I have returned!

2012-02-20T14:03:00.000-08:00

WOW. It has been over a month since the last time I updated my blog! I guess I just got some what lazy. LOL. Let's see, let me catch you up on my semi-exciting life. (Not really)

As you all know by now, I am an assistant cheer coach at my old high school. This past month I choreographed my first dance routine ever. At the last basketball game, my Jv girls preformed it and it came out absolutely amazing! Yes, I may have choreographed it but the girls made it what it was by putting in all their hard work. Although it was a lot of hard work and not going to lie, a little anxiety lol it was all worth it because I felt so proud of my girls and my self for creating such an awesome performance! If you want to check it out, heres the performance. :)

I'm not sure if I had already posted this or not but recently after A LOT of studying, I passed the written part of my driving test! whoo! Now all I need to do is learn how to drive! :D I know its kind of late and I probably should of learned by now but, due to different circumstances and the fact that I have always been a late bloomer, it just hasn't happened yet. In a few months hopefully you'll see me on the road. ;)

SCHOOL! Yes, it is that time of year again. School is back in session and I am so excited! I love going to school because I always feel like I am accomplishing something just by being there and opening my brain up to new knowledge. I really missed school since I had to drop out of fall semester due to another surgery. And I had awesome classes! This semester, not so much. :( by the time I registered everything was taken. Hopefully I will get better classes next fall because I really do enjoy school and I really want to try and figure out what exactly I want to do in life. I am thinking about something with children because they are just such a joy to be around.

OH! I would like to share some wonderful news! As of last week, my oldest sister Sarah became an RN and graduated on saturday! I am so extremely proud of her. She worked her butt off for a whole entire year. She has accomplished so much. AND she already got a job as a nurse! working in oncology! Her dream! All of her success has really motivated me to figure out what I want to do and to work really hard at it because in the end, it will all be worth it.

WELL, that pretty much sums up what has been going on lately. Even though there have been some positives this month, there are definitely still stresses in my life. I am just trying to stay calm and remember to breath. I will just keep picking up the broken pieces of my life and moving forward. That is all I can do. I really do still have hope that in the end my life will turn out how I want it to be. Or how it's meant to be. I just have to be patient. (but flowers from my not so secret admire always makes everything better. ;p)

xoxo,
Alex<3

To being normal!

2012-01-10T22:55:00.001-08:00

Friends Friday!

2012-01-06T17:27:00.000-08:00

"You can't do anything!!"

"It's kind of the same thing."

2012-01-04T18:37:00.000-08:00

"You And Me"

2012-01-02T20:16:00.000-08:00

belated Friends Friday: New years eve special!

2011-12-31T13:56:00.000-08:00

Hey guys! I was super busy yesterday so I was able to post my friends friday! Heres a new years eve special! It's one of my favorite episodes. Enjoy! Happy New Year everyone!

Friends Friday: Christmas Special!

2011-12-23T13:36:00.000-08:00

"My favorite part was when Superman came in and flew all the Jews out of Egypt."

Clearing my mind.

2011-12-22T17:58:00.000-08:00

This past week has been a total bust. I have been sick ALL week. Since Sunday. I have a bad case of cabin fever. On Tuesday, I was able to get out of the house for about three hours for the cheer christmas dinner. The next day I woke up feeling sick all over again. I may have pushed myself too far. Now it seems like its taking me forever to get well. My mom and sister made our italian holiday cookies yesterday and of course, I was unable to participate because I didn't want to infect anything :/ YEAH I can still eat them but, it's just not the same.
I feel like the Christmas season went by way to fast. I feel like I barley got to even enjoy the decorations, the holiday movies, our christmas tree. I don't know. I almost feel like I'm ready for it to be 2012 so we can all just put 2011 behind us. 2011 wasn't exactly my best year. A lot of drama, a lot of tears, and a lot of surprises. Some good but, mostly bad. I'm SO ready to just move on with my life. My life definitely hasn't turned out the way I thought it would. So many things have changed. In the end, I have realized that it was all for the better but, still, what a stressful time. As a result, my poor face has gotten the worst of it. Everyday I wake up, I seem to have a new breakout spot on my face. I have had acne before but, not for a while. It has never been as bad as it is now. This hasn't exactly helped my stress level since now I'm always worried that people are going to notice these horrific changes to my face! And stress makes acne worse! It's a viscous cycle.
YUP. I'm just ready for this year to be over. (Not like everything is magically going to change when the clock strikes midnight) I just want better luck next year. Better memories, better times, better health! No surgeries, no injuries, no tears, no drama. I know thats a bit unrealistic but, hey, a girl can dream can't she? If anything, I know I'm going to try to stay as positive as I can. I know things are only going to get harder but, there are a few things that I am actually looking forward too. Like driving! Woot. And a few other things that I will keep a secret for now.
I was having such a hard time dealing with how much things have change this past year but, as I get to the end of this entry, I have actually realized that maybe everything that has happened is good. I have learned a lot about myself and I have also grown up a lot. I have changed and I kind of have an idea of what I want out of life. Where I want to go, where I want to be, what kind of person I want to be with. These are all positive things that have come out of negative experiences. Haha. Wow, it is funny how your opinions about things can change as you simple write something down. I hope I have made some sense here and if not, well, sorry! It made sense to me and my mind feels more relaxed now. :) Who knew writing could be so therapeutic.

2011-12-21T18:54:00.000-08:00

Disney <3

Friends Friday!!

2011-12-16T13:31:00.000-08:00

"Could I BE wearing anymore clothes?"

Christmas Childhood Memories

2011-12-13T16:59:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I was going through all our old VHS's and I stubbled upon a tape labeled "Christmas". When My sister and I were little, my mom would pop in this tape around the holiday's and we would be glued for hours! It really brought me back to my childhood. I don't remember when I stopped watching the tape but I would wait to watch all these classics all year. Noel, The bears who saved christmas, Winnie the Pooh, Snowden, Nick and Noel, the Muppets Christmas Carol, Mr. Willowby's christmas tree and so much more! Not to mention all the claymation christmas stories I still watch every year. Rudolph, The year without a santa clause, Santa clause is coming to town. OH! I can't forget about my favorite, frosty the snowman <3 These movie's just never get old. There is something about them that is so simple that makes them so enjoyable to watch. They are classic. :)

White Christmas

2011-12-12T20:51:00.000-08:00

I absolutely LOVE Vera-Ellen in this dance number. She is such an amazing dancer. It's people like her that make me want to keep dancing<3

A Sunday Christmas

2011-12-12T20:41:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a holiday packed day! It was the first time I ever made holiday cut out cookies :) they actually came out pretty good. The Gingerbread ones came out really good! The sugar cookies were a little too crunchy for my taste but still perfectly delicious!

sugar cookies

My arms are hairy LOL

Gingerbread

Three hours later <3 success

I had so much fun baking these cookies! I think I'm going to make some more gingerbread ones <3 I was so tired when I was all done! It takes a lot out of you! LOL

After the cookies, my sister ended up getting off work early so we were able to get our christmas tree! This was the fastest we have EVER gotten our tree. We were out of the tree lot in 10 minutes! It was like love at first site :D. It's a tiny little thing, just about 5 feet. Perfect size for us. We have not yet decorated it but we will do that tonight! However, last night (after a little bit of anxiety lol) I put the lights on all by myself for the very first time! I felt VERY accomplished. Not too mention they look pretty darn good.

Mommy: "Arcadia, can you use a drill?" Arcadia: "Sure."

Here we go...

Our little tree <3

Yup, Sunday was a pretty good day. I have actually had four very good days in a row! :) It has been a nice change because I can't remember the last time I have had that many good days! I'm finally starting to feel happy again and content. I absolutely love it. I finally feel like my self again. :) Not to mention! I passed my permit test today!!!!!!! :D I was so happy and still am! Hopefully this happy streak last awhile longer! *knock on wood*

Friends Friday part 2

2011-12-10T13:06:00.000-08:00

"Shut up! Shut up! SHUT UUPP!!"

Friends Friday : epic failure

2011-12-10T13:02:00.000-08:00

I have missed two friends friday in a row! I am very upset about this. So, too make up for it I have posted some of the funniest friends moments in my opinion :) Hope you enjoy! <3

"It comes from an egg! chicken?"

ADORABLE!

2011-12-06T10:29:00.000-08:00

Fashion love.

2011-12-05T18:46:00.000-08:00

Gorgeous. I'm so jealous of her wardrobe. I love her!
http://karlascloset.blogspot.com/

Lighting and bells and trees OH MY!

2011-12-04T18:35:00.000-08:00

OH what a hectic few days we have had! As ALL OF YOU KNOW the Santa Ana winds did a number on the San Gabriel Valley this weekend. In my 20 years of life, I have never experienced anything like this before. The first night of the winds terrified me!

On Wednesday night, my sister and I were having a lovely time enjoying the Muppets christmas special. During that time, my grandma had called and told us to charge our phones because there was suppose to be strong winds and she feared the power going out. We all laughed and did not really take her to seriously but, we decided to put our electronics on their chargers just in case. Well Nana! You were right! I was laying in bed at 11:30pm watching a show I had been waiting all week to come on. At this point the winds were pretty loud and I was starting to get a little freaked just because it sounded as if things were getting banged around. Then, our power would turn off for 20 seconds and then turned back on for 5 minutes. This continued for about 15 minutes until the power officially went out at 11:45pm. Just when my show was getting good too! Now the winds were stronger then ever. I was truly scared because I had never experienced anything like that before. What was even worse was that my poor little dogs were shaking in fear. Roxxy is not scared of ANYTHING. So the fact that she was freaking out, freaked me out! My sister and I watched the trees sway back and fourth from our front door window. We went to the back door too see how the trees looked in the backed yard when my mom yelled "OH MY GOD WHAT'S ON OUR FRONT LAWN?!?!" Naturally, from the tone of her voice I thought maybe a huge animal or car had tumbled on our front lawn. LOL Since Arcadia and I had just been watching out the window, we didn't believe that there was anything at all. We were wrong. A huge tree rested on our grass and in the dark, it looked a lot scarier then it did the next morning! That's not the worst of it. We all were standing in the dinning room when all of the sudden our living room window shattered! A tree branch broke my window. At this point I am huddled in the hall way with my dogs because it was the only place I felt safe! LOL My crazy sister went outside to move her car so that a tree wouldn't fall on it and my mom's only concern was her damn christmas bells! After my sister came inside the winds got even worse! All you could hear was the sound of my mom's bells banging against the house. She couldn't bear it anymore so she ran outside and grabbed all the decorations she could. She's crazy! Here I am huddled in the corner praying that we don't fly away to the land of Oz and my mom is worried about here stupid bells! Her bells her bells! Not to mention the lighting that was lighting up the sky! *sigh* It was a crazy night. We didn't get to sleep until 3:30am and we all slept in the living room together because we were to scared to sleep alone in our rooms. Lol. Arcadia and I made a little bed on the floor and my mom slept on the couch. I'm surprised I slept at all. When we woke up the next morning the power was still out and our house was trashed.

The giant tree on our front lawn.

Branch that broke my window

Our make shift bed. LOL

our backyard

backyard

broken window :(

tree branch in the backyard

It is a mess outside. The winds were scary but the worst part of it was having no power for three days. You don't realize how reliant you are on electricity before it's gone. We lost mostly everything in our refrigerator and have to buy new food. Our house was FREEZING and we were completely bored out of our minds! We carried flashlights with us everywhere and there were candles all around the house and that still wasn't enough. We tried to keep ourselves occupied as much as we could.

Solitaire. You can't tell but the cards are bigger than my hand. lol.

Monopoly anyone?

Going to bed was actually hard for me because I always have to watch tv so that I can fall asleep. Instead I stayed up for about an hour reading a book until I finally had to close my eyes.

The next day I woke up hoping that we would have power but we didn't. I had to boil water and make instant coffee, which was not good AT ALL but, I was desperate. The second day was even worse then the first because we had run out of things to do. My sister and I decided to do some yoga since we hadn't worked out for a few days. Plus, it's a great stress reliever. We spent the afternoon at my grandmas but we came back that night because we couldn't leave our poor little doggies all alone in the dark. We got really loopy that night. We were absolutely out of our minds! That night we took the dogs on a walk, played monopoly (again), played a series of 21 questions, sang some christmas carols(not as pleasant as it sounds lol) and I even made a story to tell everyone. It was a fairytale. :) and I have to say it was pretty damn good! My sister and I even decided to go outside and get some wood to make a fire! We had enough of it! LOL I really felt like a caveman now!

Our fire place...nothing like a warm fire. :)

This is nothing! We had like three huge piles!!

Arcadia likes playing with fire.

That Night at 4am our power went back on! I was so excited but, it didn't last very long. LOL. I was in the shower because I was getting ready to go to dinner with a friend when all the sudden, the power goes out again! Thankfully it went back on but, an hour later it was off and it stayed off till 8pm. Now, my power has officially been on for a full day and I just pray that it stays that way! The winds are suppose to be coming back so we have prepared ourselves just in case! Charged everything, did laundry and bought candles!

So, since I like to find a positive spin on the negative things in my life here's what I did enjoy about the past three days. I got to spend a lot of time with my mom and sister. Even though we live together we don't always get to spend all our time together. We were forced to keep each other entertained and we did have a lot of laughs. :) My funniest moments are always with them and I love spending time with them. HOWEVER, I love you guys but I am VERY happy that the power is back on! And I hope it never goes off again!

Also, I want to say thanks to my oldest sister Sarah for giving us updates on the situation and to my texting buddy who kept me company for three days so I wouldn't go completely out of my mind! LOL love ya BFF+! <3 And for taking me out last night so I didn't have to sit in the darkness again!

Now, I'm going to enjoy all the lights in my house and wait for my new favorite show to come on. See ya later! :p

ALWAYS feed me. :)

2011-11-29T21:47:00.000-08:00

When You Wish Upon A Star

2011-11-27T21:13:00.000-08:00

"Anything your heart desires will come to you"

Post thanksgiving+Christmas decor: DIY style!

2011-11-26T16:26:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone!

I hope your Thanksgiving was as fun as mine! <3

The turkey was juicy, the mashed potatoes were perfect and

the egg plant was to die for! I definitely pig out. My sister and her husband came to town so I was very happy to see them again! We played our annual game of friends scene it. ( I rock at this game by the way.) We also watched the Packer game as you can see to the right! LOL My sisters are sporting there gear! Since I don't watch football, I was the only one without anything packer on so I threw on a headband for pictures and pretended I knew what I was talking about for the day! We ended the night pretty early with some pumpkin pie and then everyone was on their way. :) Until next year Thanksgiving!

The next day my mom and I spent ALL DAY un-decorating and re-decorating for christmas! We never even got out of our PJs! I am very excited it is my favorite holiday. I love the whole month leading up to christmas day. Decorating, getting a tree, the lights, all the christmas movies and the holiday baking of course! It is just such a magical time of year and I love the cozy feeling of it all. It may be corny but I don't care!

Last year I made a couple of DIY christmas decorations for the house and this year, I decided to kick it up a notch! So I wanted to share because I am very proud of my self. Lol. They just look so pretty. So here they are.

One Pine cone
Red, Green and white candy canes, place them around the pine cone
Some fake pine and holly leaves
Add some fake snow

mini fake apple ornaments
mini fake cranberries with some fake pine.
and of course, fake snow

A layer of multi colored garland
A layer of pine cones and then put the rest of the garland on top
top it off with a pine cone and some spray glitter :D

pine cone
apples
holly leaves
two light bulbs from a strand of xmas lights
gold and red beaded necklace

That's it! You can really get creative with these and we got a lot of new decorations around the house. :) Just have fun with it and try different things to see what works and what looks nice. When you experiment that's when you get the best results! OH YES! and I cannot forget the mistletoe!

XOXO

Friends Friday

2011-11-25T20:52:00.000-08:00

"YOU CAN'T SAY THAT! YOU DON'T KNOW!"

A birthday celebration

2011-11-22T23:54:00.000-08:00

My birthday is officially over! I had such a great day. :) I can't believe I am 20! :O I know it doesn't sound old at all but it is just amazing how time flies by so quickly. I'm just happy that I'm alive and thriving!

I woke up to a happy birthday sign hung across the chair I sit in every morning. An extra cuddly Roxxy and a piece of fruit cake. Yuumm. Then I got the most awesomest present of all from my sister Arcadia! I totally didn't expect it!

OH YEEAAAHHH.

JUST DANCE 3!!!!!! You have no idea how obsessed I am with this game. I have Just Dance 2 and I pretty much have memorized every single song so, it was time for an upgrade! Naturally, I tore it open the second I got it and was playing within the next five minutes. We shook our booties for the next hour! It was awesome. I actually want to play right now! LOL!

After I had my fun, my mom and sister and I got ready and headed out for a day of shopping. <3 My favorite! I got some pretty cute stuff. :) a pair of riding boots that I am absolutely in love with and have been wanting them FOR-EVER. They were really cheap too! Also a pair of black glitter earrings. (I can't resist the sparkle.) A purple hoodie from Cotton On and a adorable long light sweater from Forever 21. Yup. I would say I made out pretty well...thank you Mommy! Love everything!

Then after an exciting day of shopping, of course, I had to refuel! So we went to my favorite mexican restaurant, Rudy's in Old Town Monrovia. The food is epic and you cannot go there without totally pigging out! Plus, they have THE BEST chips and salsa I have ever had. We went through three bowls of chips and two bowls of salsa! :D At the end of my meal, the waiter placed a sombrero on my head and sang me happy birthday with a piece of flan! Which was amazing and so creamy. Mmmm, if I could, I would eat another piece right now.

Yes, I had a pretty good birthday. :) fun and simple. Just the way I like it. Thank you all who wished me a happy birthday. You are all so kind. Until next year! 21 baby<3

Thanksgiving here I come!!!

Mr. Know It All

2011-11-20T20:47:00.000-08:00

"You don't know a thing about me."

You can blame the AMA's for all the music posts. LOL :)

Taylor Love.

2011-11-20T20:02:00.000-08:00

"Someday I'll be living in a big ol' city And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Why you gotta be so mean?"

A disturbing find.

2011-11-20T00:09:00.000-08:00

Today as I was on Pinterest pinning my little heart away when I came across a long list of tips on "How to stay thin". Sadly, the tips that were given where unhealthy and disturbing. What upset me more was how much people were actually repining this and actually listening to this horrible list. Before I go on, here is the list so you can see for yourself.

"1. Drink one glass of water every hour. It will make you feel full. 2. Drink ice cold water. Your body will burn calories just getting the water to a normal temperature to digest. Also it is great for your complexion. 3. Drink 3 cups of green tea daily. It will help boost your metabolism, plus its anti-oxidants make your skin look great. 4. Take vitamins daily. Do not take vitamins on an empty stomache, otherwise they have nothing to catalyze with. 5. Eat ice or gum when hungry. This will make your body think it had food without the calories. 6. Do aerobics until you want to faint. 7. Eat spicy foods. They raise your metabolism. 8. Take cold showers because your body will burn calories to heat you back up. 9. DON’T take laxatives. They don’t help you to lose weight. 10. DON’T use diruretics. They only dehydrate you. 11. Brush your teeth constantly so you won’t be tempted to eat afterwards. 12. Weat a rubberband around your wrist. Snap it when you want to eat. 13. Clean something gross (toilet, litter box, boyfriend’s closet) when you want to eat. You will not want to eat after cleaning a litter box. 14. Keep your hair in good condition so no one will suspect anything. 15. Get a job so you’ll have to work through meal times. 16. Exercise twice the amount of calories eaten. 17. Use smaller plates and utensils so it seems like you ate more. 18. Chew eat bite of food thoroughly and then take a sip of water between bites. You will feel full quicker and will not eat as much. 19. Say you are going to eat at a friend’s house and instead go for a walk. You will be burning calories instead of taking them in. 20. Buy clothes that you can’t fit into and hang them wear you can see them. This will motivate you to lose weight to fit into them. 21. Sleep at least six hours a day. If you get less than six this can lower your metabolism by 15%. 22. If you start to feel hungry do situps or punch yourself in the stomach. You will not feel hungry anymore. 23. Pamper yourself! Give yourself a facial, paint your nails, anything to make you feel pretty. 24. Make yourself a snack, but instead of eating it throw it away. Leave the dirty dishes where your parents can find them. They will think you ate. 25. Prepare a list of excuses as to why you can’t eat - You’re sick, you’re a vegetarian, allergic, etc. You’d be amazed at how many good excuses there are. 26. Get out of your house! If you’re not sitting around then people can’t start shit with you about not eating. 27. Join a pro-ana group or start your own website. Anything that will keep you motivated. 28. Make an ANA scrapbook with pics of skinny models. Right down all the reasons you want to lose weight. Keep track of everything you eat. Look at it daily for thinsperation. 29. Keep good posture, burns 10% more calories when you sit up straight. 30. Instead of food, buy something else, a new shirt, flowers, jewelrey etc. 31. Make a list of all the “bad” foods that you crave and tend to binge on. Each day, pick one to take out of your diet that you absolutely, no matter what, cannot eat again. Take one off the list each day until there are no more bad foods you can have. 32. Avoid alcohol! A shot of liquor has 100-120 calories, a glass of wine has 80 calories, a lite beer has 110-120 calories, and a regular beer has 140-170 calories. 33. Never eat anything bigger than about a cup, your stomach will expand and then you’ll get hungry more. 34. Eat in front of a mirror naked. See how much you can eat then! 35. The smell of coffee is suppose to supress appetite. 36. Wear perfectly applied lip gloss. It makes you more aware of what’s going in your mouth. Also, flavored ones help with cravings. 37. Have 6 small meals a day. Take 2 apples, and split them so you can make 6 meals out of them. That way your body will be tricked into thinking it’s eating more. 38. Low calorie hot chocolate curbs chocolate cravings, and makes you feel full. 39. Take anti-heartburn pills if you’re really hungry. They nuetralize the acid that builds and makes you hungry. 40. Take a picture of yourself wearing a bathing suit or something equally revealing, look at it when you want to eat. 41. It takes 20 minutes for the brain to realize the stomach is full. 42. When you get hunger pains curl into a ball, it makes them go away. 43. If you’re a smoker and hungry, light up a cigarette. It curbs your appetite. 44. Eat lots of fiber. It makes you feel full and takes fat with it out of your body. The natural cleansing helps improve both your energy level and overall feeling of wellness. 45. Before you dig into that cake, bag of chips, candy, or whatever, take a deep breath and count to 100. Usually by the time you get to 100 you will have coninced yourself that you don’t really want it. 46. When you’re hungry chug 2 glasses (or how many you need) of straight water. It’ll make you so full and nauseous you will have completely lost your appetite. 47. Celery actually burns calories. Every hour eat a stalk of it. Not only will it fill you up, but it will also get your metabolism kickin’. 48. Weigh yourslef before and after every time you eat. Not only will it eliminate unnecessary eating, but it will make you want to eat less when you see the numbers creep up. 49. Read the nutritional information. Remember, fat-free does not mean calorie-free. Also keep an eye on fiber content. Get as much fiber into your diet as you can, while cutting fat and calories. 50. Don’t eat a lot at once. Spread your food throughout the day. This will help to avoid binging and keep your metabolism going. 51. If you like to drink alcohol, you’ll like this. Make a rule: You can only drink every time you lose 2lbs. So, if you lose 4lbs a week, you can drink Friday and Saturday night. However, if you only lose 2lbs a week, you only get to drink one night. 52. Do not eat in front of the computer or TV. This distracts you from recognizing you’re full. 53. Save the money you would have spent on that meal in a jar. Save it in a bottle instead and watch it grow. 54. Stay away from Slim-fast and other so-called “healthy” candy bars and shakes… one look at the nutition facts will tell you why. With all the carbs and excess calories you may as well go eat a freakin pie or something. Not to mention the rediculous prices… save yourself the money, and the calories. 55. Instead of buying food, buy yourself flowers. Food is depressing, but flowers make you happy. 56. When having cravings drink a couple glasses of water with slices of lemons and count to 100 and it should go away. 57. Eating 100 cals 4 times a day is better than eating a 400 cal meal. 58. An occasional binge doesn’t hurt, in fact it’s quite beneficial if you have reached a plateau (stopped losing weight). Your body will think you have stopped starving yourself, and you will drop at least a pound overnight! Just don’t binge too regularly! 59. Someone told me that if you take a pure cold bath for 15-30 min and lower your body temp, your body burns around 200 cals for every degree it has to raise itself to reach a normal body temperture. This person tried it, a 30 min bath lowered their temp about 3-4 degrees"

The Fact that this is actually out there for young girls to read is absolute disgusting. People are actually putting it into their albums of things they love. This is not the way to loose weight and to stay healthy. Girls need to know that there are other healthy ways of living. You don't have to "punch yourself in the stomach" too stop your hunger. So many girls have a distorted look at what attractive looks like and thats not their fault. They need to know that there is more than one way to look beautiful. You don't have to be stick skinny to be gorgeous. Most women are curvy! I know I am! I wear a size 9 and I am no where near over weight. I work-out and eat healthy in the right ways. I still enjoy my junk foods but, you have to find a balance between everything. I know that there are girls out there who will actually try some of these things and that's what upset me the most. Whoever posted this for the world too see, you should be ashamed of yourself.

Please girls listen to me when I say that you are each beautiful in your own way. I know sometimes its extremely hard to feel comfortable in your own body, I have been there and I still struggle sometimes but, don't go to this extreme to do it. If you want to loose weight there are healthy ways to do so. If you do use these tips, you will be hurting yourself more then helping.

Ever After

2011-11-19T23:34:00.000-08:00

Because it's nice to pretend to be in a fairytale for a little while. <3

Holiday excitement!

2011-11-18T23:58:00.001-08:00

Hooray!! Thanksgiving week is just two days away! I'm so excited! My mom and I will be getting all our grocery together for our tasty meal. I am literally on the edge of my seat because I am so anxious for Thursday! My mouth is watering. :D

Not only is it turkey week, my birthday is on Tuesday. I'm going to be 20 :) I will be keeping it simple this year. Just a fun day of shopping and out to eat at my favorite Mexican restaurant. I'm super excited!

Remember that cake that I made last weekend? Well by the second day is was pretty much gone! So, tomorrow we will be baking another. I may or may not have eaten all of it by my lonesome self. ;p I'll try not to eat the whole thing this time!

On my friends Friday post, I posted two videos. I tried to find a video that highlighted all the friends Thanksgivings but, that wasn't happening. LOL. There was so many to choose from and I wanted to post all of them but, I wouldn't of been able to stop! So I just posted two from the 10th season. It's my favorite thanksgiving episode and my two favorite moments...I hope you enjoy!

Friends Friday-thanksgiving special! part two

2011-11-18T23:27:00.000-08:00

Friends Friday-thanksgiving special! part one

2011-11-18T23:26:00.000-08:00

small update :)

2011-11-15T16:38:00.000-08:00

YAY!! My Internet connection is back! Yesterday our AT&T services was not working so we had to have a repair come this morning to fix it. Thank goodness I had my iPhone! As horrible as that sounds. LOL I'm so addicted to technology.

In more exciting news, I have been asked to speak at an event at City of Hope in December. I don't really have all the details but as always, I'm excited to do it. :) I always feel good about myself afterwards. Like I made a small difference in some way.

Today at cheer practice, my Jv girls were able to get a solid full-up in one simple try! It was amazing and I'm so excited! They are awesome and it was beautiful.

THAT'S ALL! sorry I'm not more exciting , see you all later!

Holiday Baking

2011-11-13T21:39:00.000-08:00

The cake is done and so delicious! <3 I have been waitingall day to finally taste it and I wasn't disappointed!

Yummy, yummy, yummy. :P We will be making lots of them since we only make it around this time of year, that's what makes it so special. It's a tradition that my great grandmother started. Along with a bunch of other amazing italian recipe she brought with her from Italy! Although, I don't think this is Italian but it sure is good!

Even though I love to eat this cake, I think it is more of the tradition that I look froward to each year. No matter what's going on in my life I can take time to just stop and enjoy my self for a little awhile. It reminds me that no matter where I am or what I am going through I can still enjoy something so simple and normal. Who would of thought that a fruit cake could mean say so much. :)

work-outs, fruit cakes and gingerbread lattes!

2011-11-12T13:14:00.000-08:00

Today I over slept a little bit but, that's alright because I have been feeling under the weather the past few days. Nothing major, just a cold. Still! I have been getting sick a lot lately and it's no fun! So, instead of lounging around like I normally do, I decided to get in a mini work before I started my day. Plus, I haven't worked out in two days and I didn't want to get in sloth mode!

My sister had found this workout thing that said if you did a thousand jumping jacks four times a week that you will loose one pound each week. WELL I attempted to try it out this morning. I completely failed! LOL I reached 250 before my calfs and thigh muscles started to cramp up. In my defense, I'm still trying to get back in shape! I have not given up yet! I will reach a thousand..just not today. The rest of my workout consisted of, push-ups, triceps dips and leg lifts. LOTS OF THEM! Then I did my routine stretching and ate a banana. Only, the banana was just because I was starving. LOL. I'm feeling pretty good but my legs are a little shaky and I will probably be sore tomorrow.

The rest of my day I will be going to run some errands with my mom which will be fun because when we are together something funny and strange always happens. We are like twiddle dumb and twiddle dee! We will be getting ingredients to make our yummy fruit cake that we always make around this time of year. I know fruit cake doesn't sound great but, think of it more like a raisin, walnut bread! (with some cherries) its REALLY GOOD and moist. I will post some pictures of the finished product.

To end our day we will be getting some gingerbread lattes from starbucks which I am VERY excited about! :) yaayy for red cups! <3

Making a change.

2011-11-11T22:34:00.000-08:00

It has been awhile since I really posted anything and I'm going to start trying to be more consistent because I really do enjoy writing them. I just have been so preoccupied lately that I just really wasn't in the mood. It's funny, I used to HATE writing but recently, I have found that I really enjoy it. That's why I decided to start this blog in the first place.

There are a lot of things I have realized about my self lately. Both positive and negative. For a while now I have been in a funk. Just really unhappy with the cards that life has dealt me. I have spent a lot of time wondering what I did wrong to deserve all this bad luck. Let's just say I have spent the last four months at a pity party I should have left a long time ago.

There is only so much time I can spend sitting around feeling depressed and it has certainly not helped my anxiety disorder. Having just going through another cancer scare, I have not been taking good enough care of my self. I have decided to change all that.

The most important thing to do is to keep your mind busy. If you keep your mind busy, there will be less time for your mind to fill with doubts and fears. I have been working out daily. Cardio, strength training, and lots of stretching. It's the first time that I have really gotten a good work out since my surgery and I forgot how AMAZING it feels. It just makes me feel so much better about my self and I find my self having a lot more energy to get me through the day. Plus, it is a GREAT stress reliever! Also, I have found so much joy in coaching the JV cheerleaders at the high school. I have always felt such a passion for being a cheerleader. It was so much more than just wearing a cute skirt. It helped me to open up and to finally feel like I could be my self. It helped me to feel confident and it helped me to learn a lot about my self. It taught me how to be a leader and how to be a team player. Once I left, I felt like I was missing something. So when I had an opportunity to help out I had to say yes. Although I am still getting the hang of being on the other side of cheerleading, I have the two greatest role models to learn from. They are both just so amazing at what they do that I hope I can continue to learn from them and be able to do what they do.

One thing that has really been bugging me is that I still have yet to learn how to drive. So, instead of making my self feel like a loser, I decided to be proactive about it and made an appointment for the end of this month. Until then, I will study, study, STUDY! I am a horrible test taker and because of the chemo, I have a very hard time retaining information and focusing. I can only try my hardest and hope for the best. As for school, I won't be attending winter session because there are no available classes. So I will deal with spring when it comes.

I have been baking A LOT LATELY. I find it very relaxing and comforting :) not to mention how incredible it taste! And I have been taking all the speaking opportunities that City of hope has offered me. So that I can make a difference. Although I am not completely out of my funk, I would say I am making a positive effort to overcome it. Of course there are those days that I just want to hid under a rock and cry, but I have to remind my self that sooner or later something really good is going to come my way.

SO for the next two months I am just going to enjoy the holidays, great homemade food and my 20th birthday. :) Even though life isn't great right now, I'm going to be thankful for my wonderful family and the love and closeness we share with each other. For being healthy, for having a successful surgery and for being alive.

FRIENDS FRIDAY-"Lets play bamboozled!"

2011-11-11T11:39:00.000-08:00

tick tick tick BOOM!

2011-11-06T13:26:00.001-08:00

These past 4 months have been really tough. It's just been one thing after another. Sometimes I feel like right when I'm finally on track something goes terribly wrong.

Ever since I was diagnosed with cancer I find my self always trying to catch up with life. I always have to delay things and even though it's something that I have been dealing with for almost four years now, it doesn't make it any easier. A month ago I had to have yet ANOTHER SURGERY and once again I had to push the pause button on life. I had to drop all my classes which also meant that I was dropped from school all together! Which I recently found out when I had to reapply and lost my good registration date. Now I am unable to get any classes for winter and I don't even want to think about spring! Hello anxiety! That took care of getting a job for now, not that I have had any luck in that department anyways. Oh and have I mentioned that I still do not have my license? Because I don't! I'm not even close. And it's not because I'm lazy!!! And I'm SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE TELLING ME THAT. You have no idea what's going on in my life so don't make a judgement on me unless I asked you for your opinion. I just feel like I'm always trying to catch up with everyone. I feel like I take 2 steps forward and 4 steps back. It's just depressing. Plus, trying to move on from something that you have put your whole heart into for 3 years makes everything worse. There's just too much stress at one time and I just want to burst! I'm not asking for an easy life, I just want a moment to breath. A day where something doesn't go wrong. I just want to know if I'll figure everything out. If I'll get a chance before I get hit with something else that makes me push this stupid pause button.

These past four months have been hell but, like always I try my hardest to find something positive that has happened. Like having the opportunity to help out my old cheer squad. I absolutely love helping and it brings me some joy. Also I have become amazing friends with a person I would of never thought. And they have been there for me when ever I needed to talk and has always managed to make me laugh, even when I didn't want too.

My life is not how I want it to be right now but, it hasn't been for four years. I just have to keep pushing forward and hope that everything will fall into place.

FRIENDS FRIDAY - "Run you hairy bastard!"

2011-11-04T12:32:00.000-07:00

Holidays are here!

2011-11-02T13:42:00.000-07:00

It's official! My two favorite holidays are here! I can't believe it is already November! :O Time goes by so fast but, I'm glad it is here! Turkey day is just around the corner and I can't wait for all the yummy food I'm going to pig out on! Turkey, sweet potatoes, egg plant (yes, we make egg plant on thanksgiving. lol) MASHED POTATOES! and so much more!!!!! I better stop because I'm getting hungry! Also all the family bake goods we make around the holidays! Not only is it foods best holiday this month but, it is also my birthday. I can't believe I'm going to be 20! It's weird because I'm not too excited about turning 20. I don't want to be an adult! LOL too much stress! But really I feel like I missed a lot being a teenager because I had to grow up so fast because of the cancer. I guess I'm used to it now but it doesn't make it any easier. OH WELL! I'm just going to make the most of what I am now! OOOOO! ANNNNDD! I hope I get a chance to go to disneyland because I love the way it is decorated this time of year <3 it's so magical. LETS DO THIS! wooott!

Truth.

2011-11-02T13:17:00.001-07:00

Happy Halloween :)

2011-10-31T18:40:00.000-07:00

Happy Halloween everyone! I hope all you guys are having a safe one! My Halloween night will consist of Dancing with the Stars and a snickers bar! :D I'm very upset that all my other shows are repeats :( just because it is halloween?!?! BOO!
Anywhooo, I had a pretty good day. I worked out went to the mall walked around and got these SUPER CUTE boots from this new store called Charming Charlies! This store is absolutely AH-mazing. I had heard about it from a friend and she went on and on about it. NOW I KNOW WHAT SHE WAS TALKING ABOUT! First off the store is huge and it is covered in wall to wall accessories-and it is colored coded! They have everything! Jewelry, purses, shoes, clothes, scarfs, hats, keychains, and more! When I walked in I had no clue what to do with myself! LOL. There is so much stuff you don't know where or what to look at! Seriously guys, if you haven't been yet, go. you will not be disappointed! :) I can't wait to go back.

What was I saying?

2011-10-30T00:32:00.000-07:00

Ian Somerhalder. (:

Restless

2011-10-30T00:09:00.000-07:00

I'm at my sisters house and no matter how hard I try I just can't sleep. I don't know if it is because its not my home and it's not my bed or if it's because my mind won't stop running. I am SSOO tired of feeling this way and I wish it would just go away. Maybe get easier. But there are just so many constant reminders that never let me forget. Although even if there wasn't any, I think I would still feel this way. I just wish things could be different. And I know you guys have no idea what the hell I'm talking about but that is okay, it feels good to vent, to get things written down. This really sucks, and I really can't think of any other words but those. Lol. Is there a repeat button? Can I push it? or maybe a rewind? No? Well there should be. Its not even like I regret anything I just want to be in that one place again. BBLLLAAAAHHH. I guess I should try and sleep. Good luck too me.

'Cause this is Thriller!

2011-10-29T12:17:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was definitely a busy day! As some of you may know, I help out at my old high school with the cheer team. I am the Jv assistant coach, but I help out where ever I can. Anything to make the other two coaches life easier...I'M THERE! LOL!

So since halloween is just around the corner, we have been working hard all week to learn the iconic dance "Thriller" :D With a lot of hard work, frustration (and a little bit of tears) we managed to learn the dance and were able to teach it to the girls. Yesterday they preformed it for the entire student body during lunch time and I have to say, It was totally worth it!! They rocked that performance and everyone loved it!! I am so proud of them all! With there zombie makeup up and all, here they are preforming Michael Jackson's "Thriller"

I love it <3

After the performance the day was not over! We still had to attend a girls volleyball game and the varsity football game that night...which was away by the way! (Also the longest football game in history!) "In the place where time stands still!" If you don't know where that is from well, then, your out of luck because it's a pretty funny joke. During all this, My sister and I managed to leave Gab, go get food at Bmans and go to Starbucks and then come back before the bus had to leave! All in record timing! Seriously! It was fast! We were quick like bunnies! Although we were all exhausted, we still managed to get in a few laughs like always.

And today! Arcadia and I will be going to babysit our sisters dogs for the night well she and her husband have a wonderful time at the Marine Corps Ball! It will be a night of pizza, a scary movie and two other non-scary movies to reverse the scary one! This is going to be a very interesting night!

FRIENDS FRIDAY!!

2011-10-28T10:50:00.000-07:00

So I have decided that every friday I am going to post something about the TV show FRIENDS!

Why you ask? Well one, because its my favorite show and two, because it's my blog and I can. LOL.

So here is my first post ever.."Pants off Bing!"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nq33dgqOnXs

"I'm going to love you through it"

2011-10-27T19:25:00.000-07:00

Martina McBride has written this beautiful song that has really touched me. Her song is about a women being diagnosed with cancer and her husband being there for her through the whole experience.

When I was sick, my family are the ones that kept me going and staying positive. Making me laugh when I did not want to, Keeping me positive when I wanted to give up and telling me I was beautiful when I felt my ugliest. When you're diagnosed with cancer, you are not the only one that is effected. You're entire family is. Everyones lifestyle has to change, not just yours.

I just want my family too know how much I appreciate everything they ever did for me. For keeping me strong and positive and not letting me give up. For being there for every tear and every painful moment I had to endure. You kept me going and I love all of you for that! <3 xoxo

Reality.

2011-10-27T11:11:00.000-07:00

I did expect more. I thought things would have gone differently but, sadly it didn't. Time goes by so fast and I regret those days I had wished to pass. I try not to dwell on the past but sometimes it is all I can think about. I wish I could change things and I wish I could change the end result but, I can't. I can only hope that in time all this will become easier.

KIIS FM radio interview

2011-10-26T17:25:00.000-07:00

Jesse Lozano & I

So, like I said before I do a lot of speaking events for City of Hope in hopes of raising awareness and money for cancer research. Last friday, I did my first radio interview! My interview was with Jesse Lozano from KIIS FM or "Boy Toy Jesse" LOL.

It was such an awesome experience and I had a ton of fun! Jesse was such a nice guy and really made me feel comfortable so I could have an awesome interview. I'm so glad I was able to participate and share me story like always.

The interview is pretty short and apart of a segment they do called "Community Council". They board cast a lot of different charities and give you all the information you need to know so that you can participate if you like.

It already aired this sunday on the radio but here is the link to the podcast.. http://www.kiisfm.com/player/?station=KIIS-FM&program_name=podcast&program_id=socalspeaksout.xml&mid=21529187
The interview starts at 41:00 so you're going to have to fast forward a bit. It might lag a little but just give it a few seconds. ENJOY! <3

I wish Karla's closet was my closet!

2011-10-26T11:22:00.000-07:00

This girl Karla, is absolutely AMAZING when it comes to her fashion sense. I have been following her for awhile now and I love getting ideas from her and seeing what her next fabulous outfit will be. Not to mention her rockin' short hair cut but, I might just be bias. ;p

http://karlascloset.blogspot.com/ So check her out, you won't be disappointed! :)

Cancer Sucks.

2011-10-25T21:25:00.000-07:00

When I was 15, the most important things in my life were, cheerleading, keeping the perfect appearance, learning the ins and outs of surviving high school and of course, having a boyfriend. Never did I imagine that I would have been struck by such a huge lighting bolt. My life was completely turned upside down and things that used to be important weren't as important anymore. Here is an excerpt from my speech that I have given at a few events explaining my story.

"It all started with a really bad stomachache. My doctor thought he knew its cause and I had an appendectomy at our local hospital. But when the usually simple 30-minute surgery stretched into 5 hours, my parents knew that something wasn’t right. I woke up groggy and learned that instead of finding an appendix that had burst, they found a cyst on my ovary that had burst. And hidden below was a tumor.

They removed my ovary and the tumor and told us that everything would be fine. No more cancer, no chemo, no lasting effects. Come back in 6 months. When we left the hospital three days later we thought that I had dodged a huge bullet. But soon after, my mom just had a feeling that things weren’t OK. And the older I get, the more I realize that my mom is almost always right.

This proved true when we went to an oncologist and learned that the surgery had not gotten my entire ovary. Even though I felt fine, my body was now home to lots of tumors, some the size of golf balls. In an awful and sudden plot twist, I had Ovarian Germ Cell Cancer. That’s an awful thing to hear when you’re at any age, but it’s even more confusing and terrifying and downright unfair when you hear it at 15.

After a successful surgery to remove the tumors, chemo saved my life. Not just because it was chemo, but also because I had to have it at a place I’d never heard of: City of Hope. Because when I got cancer, my life changed dramatically. I felt left out and completely cut off from the rest of the world. My friends didn’t know how to talk to me so they stopped. And while teenage girls can spend hours fussing over their hair, I lost all mine and feared going out in public.

But coming to this place was like coming to a second home. I met Dr. Anderson and he was the first person who made me feel like I was really going to beat this. In fact, he told me that I was going to live to be a little old lady. Everyone here from the receptionists to the techs to the nurses to the doctors, believes in your power to survive. And after a while, you believe it too. Without City of Hope, I don’t think there would be as many cancer survivors in this world."

Having cancer changes everything. The way you think and the way you look at the world completely changes. Being diagnosed with cancer at such a young age was really hard. Not being able to participate in things that my peers were doing was the hardest for me. I was totally disconnected from kids my age. I had one good friend that stayed in touch with me but it was just hard to hang out with others. I had chemotherapy for 7 days straight every 21 days. And even when I came home, there was a whole week that I was down. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep. My body was sore and weak. Everything tasted bland to me and the food that was lucky enough to get down I would throw it right up. I would finally feel good for 3 days and then it was back into chemo. When I look back, there are chunks in my life that are missing, that I can't remember. Those seven days in the hospital were harsh. I was sick and I would sleep the entire time. I was on so many drugs that its hard to remember everything that happen. I would not eat at all so I would lose 8 to 10 lbs that week that I was on chemo. During that year I had lost a total of 25lbs, I was down to 120 to my normal 140-145. Also, being a girl and being bald was one of the hardest changes I had to over come. When I look back the one thing I regret is that I wish I would have gone out in public bald. I always wore a hat everywhere and I was always afraid that people were going to laugh at me. And I came across a situation where they did and I am completely disgusted by people who can be so cruel. Fitting in is hard enough when your a normal kid but add cancer into the mix and it's almost impossible. I could go on and on and on about my experience but I will keep this simple. Point is, cancer is more than just a disease, it is a life style change that you will have to adapt to for the rest of your life. It changes you and it makes you stronger. It makes you appreciate everything that you might of taken for granite. A hug, the way your moms homemade cooking taste, the ability to simply take a shower on your own. These are all things that you don't even think twice about. So take in every moment and remember it. Take chances, live your life the way you want to because you never know what could happen to you. I survived cancer. And those are the most powerful words that I could ever use.

I HAVE ARRIVED!!

2011-10-25T17:30:00.000-07:00

Well, it took me long enough to figure the whole blogging thing out but, here I am! Geez, where do I even begin?! Well I guess I should tell you a little bit about myself. This is me...

Ever since I was little I always kept to myself, I have never really been much of a social person. Growing up was very difficult for me and it still is. When I was 15 I was diagnosed with ovarian germ cell cancer. I had multiple surgeries and went through 7 rounds of chemotherapy which I will go more in depth later on in my blog. I just want to kind of give you all a taste of my life and who I am. Cancer has made a very huge impact on my life and has made me the person I am today. Raising awareness is very important to me, especially pediatric cancer. There is so much people do not know and do not understand. I work with city of hope by going around to different events and places and sharing my story, hoping to inspire others. I am not ashamed of having cancer, it's apart of me and it's a part of who I am. On top of all that! I am just a 19, (almost 20! :D) year old girl just trying to figure out this world. One step at a time. I admit that there are days when I feel like I just can't go on and life is too hard but, I don't. I have to keep reminding myself that everything will work itself out and I just have to trust that in the end my life will all tie together. So, I'm excited to start sharing my journey with you guys and I must warn you it's an interesting one! Well, that's all for now. I shall return soon! :)

Today is where my book begins...

Friend's Friday!

J. Marb. Love

Back to school!

"Ours"

I have returned!

To being normal!

Friends Friday!

"It's kind of the same thing."

"You And Me"

belated Friends Friday: New years eve special!

Friends Friday: Christmas Special!

Clearing my mind.

Friends Friday!!

Christmas Childhood Memories

White Christmas

A Sunday Christmas

Friends Friday part 2

Friends Friday : epic failure

ADORABLE!

Fashion love.

Lighting and bells and trees OH MY!

ALWAYS feed me. :)

When You Wish Upon A Star

Post thanksgiving+Christmas decor: DIY style!

Friends Friday

A birthday celebration

Mr. Know It All

Taylor Love.

A disturbing find.

Ever After

Holiday excitement!

Friends Friday-thanksgiving special! part two

Friends Friday-thanksgiving special! part one

small update :)

Holiday Baking

work-outs, fruit cakes and gingerbread lattes!

Making a change.

FRIENDS FRIDAY-"Lets play bamboozled!"

*tick tick tick* BOOM!

FRIENDS FRIDAY - "Run you hairy bastard!"

Holidays are here!

Truth.

Happy Halloween :)

What was I saying?

Restless

'Cause this is Thriller!

FRIENDS FRIDAY!!

"I'm going to love you through it"

Reality.

KIIS FM radio interview

I wish Karla's closet was my closet!

Cancer Sucks.

I HAVE ARRIVED!!

tick tick tick BOOM!